I write from experience and from what I go through, and half the time I just start writing not even sure what the piece is going to be about. Along with writing I get to put all my emotions into something else other than driving me crazy all day.
That's the other side of me people may not always see, I feel emotions very deeply, and I'm talking very deep. I could be watching a video about complete strangers and then I'll find myself bawling my eyes out. If someone else is angry, I absorb that energy and feel angry as well.
It's quite common actually to transfer ones feelings to another without really knowing them, this is what brings me to write and to create so that maybe other people that feel the same way can relate to what I'm trying to say.
Don't bottle those feelings up, because trust me they'll just end up coming out stronger than you intended. Another important thing to remember is to trust your instincts, that small voice in your head telling you to stand up a bit taller, or maybe that voice telling you that what you're doing isn't right and you should stop and think first. But we're only human and most of us like to act before listening to that voice or taking a step back first before we act.
You know yourself better than anyone else, and deep down you know what is most important to you and what you really want to do. I write this because I have a habit of acting on impulses and really strong emotions without thinking, but when I don't act on them I feel like I'm lying to myself and others.
People are afraid to talk about their feelings, whether it be a positive or negative feeling. We overshare the hell out of ourselves on social media but we don't share what we're actually feeling and instead keep it to ourselves. Everyone is made up of different emotions and feelings, we shouldn't be scared to use them and act on them, but we are, in fact we're terrified of feeling sometimes. Maybe it's because we don't want to get hurt or we don't want to see the real picture but that's life and that's the most important part of who you are.
I myself struggle to explain to others how I'm really feeling so I'll cover it with a different emotion so they can't see what I'm thinking. But if you were to go inside my head I'm actually wanting to scream or cry from frustration, and this why writing is so important to me.
Don't be afraid to be who you really are, whether that be an OCD neat freak, or an emotional mess like me sometimes, or someone who likes to take control of situations. These actions and emotions are what makes us who we are.
Trust in your emotions and sometimes you'll be surprised by what you actually care about and what you're just hiding behind. Allow yourself to feel and let people see the real you.
T x
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